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through these eyes i've looked the devil in the face, and i've seen god's holy grace [04 Oct 2004|07:48pm]
[ mood | a.d.d. ]

hey everyone. it's been a few days since i've written anything. i apologize. it's been kind of hectic lately and i haven't really gotten a chance to sit down and do much of anything. we've been around europe doing shows here and there and lots of interviews and radio stuff. i almost forget all the shit that comes with releasing a new album. it's my job though and i love it so i can't complain.

today we flew back to new york to do trl. i don't know if any of you kids caught it or not. trl is always good to us so it was nice. it was kind of funny because i don't know if you kids watch trl a whole lot and know the vj's, but the one chick vj was all over me today. she was flirting with me the last time we were on trl and it's just funny. i had to think of a good enough excuse as to why i couldn't go do stuff with her. she probably thinks i'm gay now or something, oh well. i liked how the "classic" song we got to play was "the anthem". they gave the kids one choice off our first album. i suppose we really didn't have a "hit" on trl with any of our other songs, so i'm not really surprised.

so, the album drops tomorrow. any of you kids gonna buy it? it's going to be a busy day. we're going to a bunch of record stores all over and doing signings and stuff. if you're in the area of one of those record stores, come in and say hi and *coughbuythecdcough* :)

okay, i'm having like the hardest time in the world concentrating on this entry right now so i'm just going to stop before i start making even less sense. i'm online kids, talk to me if you wanna. peace.

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grrrrrrr [22 Sep 2004|03:57pm]
[ mood | rushed ]


i wrote all about how fucking ADORABLE benj is and the hot passionate sex we had yesterday. :( guess i'll have to re-write it later. i'm out the door at the moment so i can't, but i promise i'll update later tonight!

sorry kids.

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[30 Aug 2004|10:13pm]
no one knows, okay. NO ONE HAS ANY FUCKING IDEA!
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[30 Aug 2004|09:55pm]
i'm so fucking sick of being me.
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[09 Jul 2004|02:05am]
i'll write a real entry tomorrow. sorry.

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[26 Jun 2004|03:23am]
convo with josh...

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[15 Jun 2004|02:11am]
fuck it, i'm going in.

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[10 Jun 2004|09:54pm]
[ mood | scared ]

i'm not in the mood to argue with anyone about anything, so i just want to say that right now. i'm done picking fights. i'm not trying to sound ungrateful for all of you out there...actually, i'm not going to get further into this because it's not what's really important right now.

what's really important right now is the fact that benj called me last night, very late and i'm so fucking worried right now. i think i'm more worried and scared and upset then i have been before. it must've been around 3-4 in the morning when my cell phone rang. i haven't slept a full night since benj left, and i was resting my eyes when i heard it ring. i didn't recognize the number but i answered it anyway. there must've been at least 5 minutes of silence on the other end, and me asking who it was. finally, i heard a sniffle. i knew it was benj. i asked him what i was wrong, if he was okay, if he needed anything. i talked very calm and very softly to him. he didn't say anything, just kept sniffling and eventually i heard a quiet sob before he told me he was sorry. his voice cracked when he said it and i could barely hear him. he let out another sob before telling me he loved me and hung up. i called back at least 100 times after he hung up. whatever number it was, no one answered. i'm SO fucking scared of what might've happened before or after he called me. i want to think it was just him upset, even though it's not what i really WANT, it'd be better than some of the other possibilities that have been running through my mind since that call.

...god, i just wish i knew where he was!

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[05 Jun 2004|02:26am]
i just want to fucking help him!!

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quick note to all you kids... [24 Mar 2004|04:30pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

i just wanted to say that if you're deciding to take me off your friend's list, will you PLEASE tell me because it's a huge fucking pain in the ass to go through every single person's name and figure out who took me off. just a little comment would be great. i'd appreciate it a LOT! thanks.


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friends only [09 Feb 2004|12:02am]

friends only kids. leave me a note and i'll add you back.
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